Express to Sano.......Heal!!!

When you are low, and nothing seems to work as you want it. You feel like the world is going on exactly in the opposite direction than  you want it to be. You  finally give up. Isn't it just so easy to give up?  Surrendering!

What if you don't have a choice? What if there's no other way out? You can't just always sit back and quit!
What if there are no other options left? What if you just have to face it? Just stand straight , head high towards the storm. You know you can't look away and bend down, because you aren't left with an option......

Well to be more specific let me make it clear with an example most of us are prone to....
" Its a cold winter night, you are preparing before going off to sleep. You have your exam the next day! Highly confident and equally scared though you have done the portion of syllabus properly, you just switch off the lights. Your phone beeps, its a message from one of your classmate informing that ther is another chapter for the exam tomorrow."

I don't think any of you will be able to go off to sleep. Those warm blankets will be selfish enough to pull you closer but you have no choice. You can't give up!  You will get back to your books immediately !!!

Another example, exclusively mine!
I generally stop talking to everyone including my sister and my best friends.My existence becomes rare to my everyone including my roomies. I cover up myself. I am on one corner of my bed, snicked to the wall inside my quilt. I don't go near anyone, I don't answer any texts, don't receive any calls including that of my parents. I always cover up my side with the chair and blankets. I like it to be dark, haunted types! I close myself from the rest of the world, also from the sunlight outside. Even a single strand ray of light hurts me. Am so prone to everything at that point of time. And its only me alone lying, just to feel lower than before!!"

And the next thing happens is that I appear like a zombie to my roomies, they are scared somewhat. The lessons to be covered are left. The assignments to be completed are left half done. My friends and family get worried about me(atleast those who care). My blog keeps on missing me and on the other hand I am more depressed due to the darkness as never before. Each of my planning is ruined and finally I regret which leads me into a huge world of grief!

Man!!! locking yourself from the world doesn't work!

You gotta stand and take a deep breath. Start expressing yourself! Start!!! Talk it out with your most trusted friends or your best friend. If they don't listen to you, then just stand in front of the mirror and talk to your own self. And if it still doesn't work!!! Stand under the shower and cry! there is no one to disturb you over there, not even you your ownself, because you can't question yourself for your tears standing under the shower (LOL! that will be hilarious).

And if nothing else works....Write it out! that is what I do, I write and sing to express every kind of emotion. It feels secure as well as am fresh as ever again!

Guys, till the time you don't express yourself and get it out of your system, you will go on torturing your self. I bet, in that little shell you create for yourself just to hide yourself,  makes you more vulnerable to the negativity of world! Express..... Sing...... Write......Talk!!! After all we are human beings, not some kind of secret box where we can hide all our problems!!! Be happy!  And be the white one in dark :)

my sweeto sis!!!!

her 4th birthday!

My sister is super duper mental. She is 5 years elder to me and still seems to be 5 years younger. I have never fel like the younger one at home. Its not like am jealous, but am proud of taking care of her all the time. I am the one who scolds her, points out her mistake, lecture her for hours and the most important is I try to my best to keep her happy. Haha! she is my little cute sister! I am lucky to have her. Sometimes she gets all so furious for me being treated as the elder in the family. LOL! she was such a small bag of cuteness.When ever I sleep beside her I know, I won't be technically sleeping. She goes in anticlockwise direction all over the bed. I can go on and on writing about her.... because afterall i just love her ^_^

HOME.... my version of HEAVEN!

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

These are the last two para's from the song "HOME" by Michael Buble. When I heard this song for the first time I didn't understand the meaning "Home" we can never estimate its value, no one can. When we are home, we don't understand what it means. But after the completion of twelveth and in many others cases tenth, we exactly know what this 4 lettered word means.
                                                              "A place kids feel secure,
                                                          that corner near the television set,
                                                        sofa where you split your milk glass,
                                                      though you never know what it means."

I being an hosteler now know, what it feels to be at home, while on the other hand few years back during my high school, I prayed to get out of the state. I wanted to explore, I wanted to fly alone where mom wouldn't be calling me or dad wont be scolding. Today i regret for all my prayers and wanna get back to that secure heaven where my parents will be always there to guide me even with the smallest thing ever. Not only this i want my life to be simple without any tension. Am not trying to run away from the work load. But i guess when you get back from classes there is mom just to ask you how was your day, makes your life simpler.

It doesn't matter, how many friends you have, or how much you want to be with your boyfriend or girlfriend? I bet you can't ever get a safer sleep and dream happily on beloved arms,  because still you will be tensed about aomething or the other related to your beloved. But when it comes to home, all you need is a calm atmosphere and you will have the most relaxing sound sleep! That is what home does to you..... You will go on feeling lonely in a group of 50 if you dont have a home. Being alone is the worst realisation which kills you daily.

                                                                    'Lonely on my bed,

I sit with my half filled coffee mug,

 laughing and giggling with my friends, 

cracking jokes on each other,

The weather outside is ravishing, 

the light goes off,

its raining and we shout,

we tease each other, scaring,

Suddenly you realise,

in the club of 8,

you know none, 

whom do you trust?

Is is it storm outside with the light flashes,

or is it the friend just beside you,

is it the coffee mug that is still hot,

or is it the room which is not your home......

You are alone

When you know

Its not your home'

Home, is the place where you can sleep without any responsibilities. Home is the place where what ever happpens you know are not alone. And home is the place where even if you fall down suddenly, your addrenaline doesn't strikes off...........

"Ghar yaad aata hai mujhe" from the episodes of Satyamev Jayate, anyone like me can relate to it. Not only anyone like me, but everyone can. Even a man living with his wife and children misses his real home. Home where you live with your parents and your siblings. We fight, quarrel and scream. But that it what it takes to make that small designed collection of bricks to be called as "home".

"people fear god , coz no one wants to end up in hell

they worship almighty, coz everyone wants to die peacefully

some sacrifice all their happiness, to find the greatest of the all

And all these just for the sake of heaven!!!

I have a little advice, 

"go back home, head on your mother's lap and go off to sleep"

I don't think you need to fear, sacrifice or give away anything.......

because you already are in heaven! :)"

                                                               

First successful college event! :D

"A good teacher takes a hand, opens up the mind and touches the heart. Good morning to one and all present here" Yes! this is exactly I how began with the teacher's day celebration today. One of my friend had  accompanied me for the sanskrit sloke. Everything seemed to glitter in front of me. It wasn't my first time on stage, I used to enact for english plays during school days. I also anchored for the class assembly. But this was my first attempt in college, that too with the opening.

Being equally nervous and shaky I tried my level best to hold on. Either I got confident or maybe I got so excited when I saw my fav teacher give a wide smile. And everything was CHO MANTAR. And that was it, we had the best teacher's day ever possible in our pharma wing. All our teaching and non teaching staff were being felicitated. Ahh!! I just forgot to write about the games. First one was from the 2nd year's batch, and the second one was from the first year's batch. I swear they just nailed it. 

As said "anth bhala toh sab bhala", me and my other 7 co- organisers rocked it. Lat but not the least I also mentioned "we would like more support and appreciation from our batch mates and the seniors". That did really hurt me, none of the seniors contributed or the program, didn't even attend. I guess some people only know how to pull others backwards while they themselves don't progress either. Same goes with few of our classmates. I wish everyone who tried their best to create problems read this" Guys, go on give your best shot at spoiling everything, and we will keep on learning how to deal with thorns to                                                                        reach the roses":)